#1 Cassie's Testimony For Sharon Forrest
I have been working with some major issues in my life during this 10-day workshop with Sharon Forrest.

Some of the issues I've been working on are, depression, suicide attempts, feelings of being hopeless and helpless, and powerless in my life. I have had feelings of not wanting to go on, that it's no use, of feeling lonely, scared, like I can't do anything right, something's wrong with me, and often sick to my stomach.

We did a past life regression today. I wanted to find out why I feel the way I do, and why I have a scar (birthmark) on my right arm and my stomach.

I found myself going back in time to January 1978. (I was born in this present lifetime in 1982). I was a 24 year old woman with 2 children, 1yr. old twins, Nicholas and Katelyn, and another baby boy on the way. My name was Claire and my husband's name was John.

My husband and I were at a dinner party at a neighbor's home, and our twins were at home with a babysitter. We heard smoke detector alarms go off from our house, and my husband immediately ran out. We saw the flames and I ran after my husband. When we got to our home I tired to run it but my neighbors held me back by my left arm. I was at the window and I could see Katelyn and Nicholas in their playpen screaming, the edge of the playpen had caught fire. I was reaching in the window with my right arm, and it was being burned, but I kept trying to reach them.

I was still being held back by neighbors. The pain in my arm, I could not feel, as the pain of losing my family was far worse. My husband was running across the room to grab our babies, when a board fell down on his right shoulder knocking him out. I watched frantically, as my family was burned and died. I felt hopeless, helpless, powerless, terrified, sick to my stomach, in shock, rage, depression, and horror.

Two days later, in my mother's kitchen, sitting at the kitchen table, I was staring at my bandaged right arm which had been badly burned. I felt depressed, like I couldn't go on, deep, deep grief, sorrow, hopelessness, powerless, suicide and guilt.

I apologized to the baby boy inside me, begging for forgiveness for what I was about to do. I just couldn't stand the pain, and just couldn't go on. These were my thoughts and feelings as I picked up a sharp knife, my dying vow, or thoughts just before plumping it through my stomach was, no matter what it takes, I will get my babies and my husband back. I then plunged it in, to my abdomen.

I see my health problems and issues I brought back from that life as Claire to now my present life. My right arm had a huge strawberry hemangioma (birthmark) on it that showed up when I was 5 days old. It became gangrenous and I almost died at 4 months old. From all the trauma and scar tissue, it now looks like a huge burn. I have felt terrified of fire, sick to my stomach often, hopeless, helpless, guilty, powerless, suicidal, desperate, and like I just can't go on - I have had many triggers over the past 2 years, including being bullied and receiving death threats.

The bullying and threats began in September '95 - I felt powerless and hopeless and ashamed, and this triggered my not wanting to go on. In January, 1996, my boyfriend at the time seemed to trigger my depression. I felt like I had known him before. He was the baby I was pregnant with when I killed myself as Claire. When I was with him in this life, I tried to kill myself.

The next thing that triggered my present day depression was being in a fire. I was a babysitter & the house caught on fire. The child and I got out safely and there wasn't much damage to the house. It triggered more depression in me however and terrified me at the time. I again felt hopeless and powerless.

The next trigger was January 1997 when I was drugged and raped. I became pregnant with twins, a boy and a girl, and I was going to name them Katelyn and Nicholas. I know these were the babies I lost as Claire. I lost them again at four months. This really upset me as I was loosing a part of my heart soul again. (My vow was no matter what I would get me babies and my husband back).

My present boyfriend R was my husband John, when I was Claire. His right shoulder is popped out now and he has difficulty using his right arm, in this life. (This is the arm that was hit by the board that knocked him out in the fire as John). He has recently called me his wife, which we both thought was just a slip of the tongue.

I see many patterns and similarities from that past life to now. I reprogrammed my life as Claire to be happy, complete, raising a healthy family, and being confident and loving herself and her life.

I am now making a change in my life. I am choosing to create what I want and to stand in my Power and to Love and accept myself more, and to feel stronger and happier inside.

This feels like a new beginning for me.

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#2 Spiritual Alchemy and CCMBA
(Reversal of M.S. and debilitating panic attacks)

Dear Dr. Forrest:

You probably see so many people, you'll probably not remember me. You met me in Boston at New Millennium. I am the woman with MS and you did a regression on me to a previous life where I experienced my own murder and an attempted sexual assault. You explained that that was the karma that led me to the horribly violent sexual assault I experienced in this life in which I nearly died but my best friend was murdered. Also in that life, I recognized that my husband in that life, who was falsely accused and convicted of my murder, is my soul mate in this life, and he has had a life-long phobia of being falsely accused.

You helped me to resolve my life long terror of everything. I cannot begin to tell you what a change that has made for me. I have been in psychotherapy with a wonderfully open-minded therapist for two years, trying to deal with the issues related to the assault, my shame, guilt, and anger at what happened to me, and this overwhelming terror. Jane was so impressed and so pleased for me after the last regression. We have been able to make wonderful progress in other areas since I was able to overcome the fear. She suggested I see you again to help with some self esteem and other issues (I have a list!) and I have an appointment with you Tuesday evening.

I had also written to you about Rick. He was horribly stressed when he found out about the regression and what it had revealed. It almost destroyed our relationship. I wrote to you and asked for guidance and you were so wonderfully helpful. Initially, he refused to even consider reading Dr. Weiss's books. I re-read them myself and left them out on the coffee table as you had suggested. It was a very stressful month. Then, finally, out of the blue, the other day, he asked if he could borrow them. I still don't think he totally believes it will work, but he actually called and MADE AN APPOINTMENT WITH YOU. Can you believe it? I couldn't be happier. He has at least as much fear as I had and I just hope and pray that he gets the same degree of relief that I did. I know it's up to him and how much trust he'll be able to put into the session ... but I think he really is motivated. And I do trust that he will never know that you and I discussed him.

Lastly, you suggested that my physical therapist, who took your long weekend course, try CCMBA on me. (Her name, by the way, is Michelle McLellan.) Well, she did, and the results were very interesting. As the process was progressing in my body, I actually could see color changes occurring in my body during this process. The most interesting one involved my pelvis. I had a horribly injured pelvis, and as the process moved through my body, my pelvis appeared black, then murky gold and orange, then finally, green -- which is the color that everything seemed to take on when it was "fixed." I am not an "aura" person and I have never experienced anything like this before. I had my eyes closed throughout the process, yet I could see these colors in my mind. And at one point, I was actually in my arteries... I could see into my arteries! I have a cholesterol problem and I could see my arteries cleaning and repairing themselves as part of this process. Have you ever heard of anything like this? Also, the next day, every single muscle and joint in my body ached. By the second day it was better, but I have no explanation for it. Have you ever heard of anyone going through this process experiencing this as a side effect? In any event, I do think it made a difference and my overall health is good. My MS, by the way, is in full remission.

You have made such a difference in my life. I don't know how I can ever thank you. I hope and pray that Rick gets the same good results -- he is so deserving of some happiness in his life. Thanks for all you do. And I'll see you Tuesday!

Sincerely,
Cathy Descheneaux – Forensic Investigator